From the horizon of my memory there was, had always been, a lady in the wood.
Walking or running among the fallen of an autumn morning when I was very young I met her there, picking wild herbs and toadstools from among the trees. This was in the year my mother first sat me down before a piano. The lady’s clothing was new to me, so as I described her to my father I likened it to the piano keys. I did not mean it unkindly, Such was the picture I had of her, which would stay with me over time.
My father explained that the lady lived alone in the wood, and I must always be polite to her, so the ‘Piano Lady’ joined my list of those to whom I must always be polite, which in those days was just about everybody. Was she another aunt, like the ones who visited at Christmas?
“She is not one of your family, Dominic. Sister Augusta is a recluse, a very religious person. In many ways, we are her guests.”
This seemed strange to me. The wood was ours, a part of the ‘grounds’ surrounding our home. Why was it acceptable for this oddly-clothed lady to live so freely among us, almost as though we were honoured by her presence?
“She’s a bride of Christ.”
“Does she talk to Him?”
“Quite possibly. I wouldn’t be qualified to judge.”
Further answers would trickle down to me gradually, with the years. Long before I was born, my mother told me, Madders End was a priory. The peaceful acre of green patrolled by our mower each summer once yielded to the feet of a dwindling order of nuns who tended vegetables in the walled garden where roses now grow or chattered noisily through echoing corridors where I ran, roller-bladed and played chase with a streak of white fur called Taffy.
For centuries Madders End novitiated a steady supply of fledgeling nuns, earnest women who craved the peace to be found within its doors. But as centuries change fashions and devotions must alter too, so there came an age that brought no new brides to plight their troth to Christ. One by one His ancient harem kept their appointments with Him in Paradise until so few remained they could no longer sustain their living at Madders End. The old house came up for sale. My parents saw the place and loved what they saw. They bought it, the house and all its grounds together – the stony beck which runs down to the River Madder past the orangery, the tranquil little garden alight with spring flowers where those who gave their love to God now rest, and the wood – the five-acre wood, with its solitary tenant.
Sister Augusta, like the little garden, came as part of the deal, her right to remain enshrined as a condition of purchase. Years before, hearing the priory had a ‘hermit’ in its midst, a benefactor had supplied Sister Augusta with a caravan which was pitched, at her request, within the five-acre wood. When the Church moved the last two of her Sisters in Christ to a care home Sister Augusta remained, stubbornly self-sufficient and really quite charming, to become my constant companion throughout those special growing years.
Our relationship began with the simple, direct language of childhood. “How old are you, Sister?”
She looked genuinely perplexed. “Do you know, I’m not sure. How old do you think I am?”
“A hundred and fifty.”
“Well, that must be about right. How old are you?”
“I’m six and three-quarters.”
“You’re very brave, coming into the woods alone.”
It was neither a very large wood nor a very attractive one. No tree was particularly tall, or statuesque. There was a lot of ground cover, brambles and the like, over which an anaemic mob of silver birches and struggling oaks milled like hungry gulls. Early conversations between Sister Augusta (“You must call me Gussy, it’s easier”) and I were conducted sitting on a fallen birch log she favoured as a place for contemplation. When winter came I would visit her at ‘home’, bringing newspapers from our house and a casserole or two prepared by my mother.
Sister Gussy’s caravan, for some reason, possessed no wheels. It rested on railway sleepers to one side of a clearing in the wood, glaring defiantly out from the undergrowth with its big windows at one end, buried deep in verdure at the other. Inside it was as clean and austere as you might expect, its only furniture a bed, a table, two elderly leather chairs and a little cooker that hissed and hiccupped its way through a cylinder of gas tucked from sight beneath its skirts.
Skirts? Yes, ‘skirts’ were a distinctive influence in Sister Gussy’s décor. From the heavy velvet divide shielding the dormer end of her caravan to the odd pieces of cloth that draped from curtain wires over every cupboard, nook and cranny; wherever there might be doors there was a ‘skirt’ instead, and each ‘skirt’ had an identity of its own. If Gussy needed the pewter dish from which she ate I would find it ‘behind the rabbits’, a shelf covered by a fragment of child’s pyjamas with a rabbit print; so, too, for her religious artefacts (behind the pink stripes), her toiletries (the pandas), and so on.
“So much better than cupboard doors which are forever falling off, or swelling and becoming stuck when the weather’s wet, you see?”
She had very few cubby holes in that caravan and very few possessions. With a child’s frankness, I pointed this out to her in one of our early overtures of conversation.
“I have all I need.” Gussy told me. “The Lord provides, but He is a bit naughty sometimes, because He lets me forget where He puts things. He is particularly mischievous in the spectacles department!”
Gussy’s heavy, brown-framed National Health specs were a constant vexation to her. “They persist in hiding from me the moment I turn my back.”
The only other structure in Gussy’s clearing was a small wooden hut discreetly tucked away in the overgrowth behind the caravan, which she referred to as ‘The Necessary’. The remaining open ground was her garden, planted with neat rows of turnips, carrots, beans and every naturally rooted comestible you could think of. There were clamps of potatoes, forcing pots of rhubarb, stakes for peas to climb and raised beds full of herbs, although the visual clinicity of this earthly paradise was rather ruined by an array of polythene cloches and netting.
“The birds are absolute terrors, you see? They are convinced they need my food more than I,” Gussy explained, musing, as an afterthought, “Perhaps they do.”
A small bed of marigolds grew discreetly in one corner of the garden. I remarked upon these being her only flowers.
“Flowers are rather sinful, aren’t they? An indulgence. The Lord said I can get away with marigolds because they are quite nice as a tea and good for the skin, but He knows the truth, you see. I believe I pointed out that chrysanthemums are very tasty too, but He thought that was a step too far.”
Many were the enchanted hours I spent, child and later youth, talking and reading with the ascetic recluse of our woods, while my family shared in the bounty of her garden because, like all well-tended gardens, it unfailingly exceeded its carer’s needs. Her protest: “I shall never eat all these!” as she sent me home with a trug full of goodness became familiar to our kitchen. She might have shamed us for our feckless treatment of grounds that had once fed an entire priory; now so devoted to lawns and vanity they produced not so much as a lettuce, but she never did.
If I have given the impression that we had our darling Sister entirely to ourselves I have misled you. The winding lane by which, at some distant time presumably, the caravan had made its way to Gussy’s clearing was frequented by others too. Father Macalbee, our local priest, visited once a week to take her confession, and I remember an acutely shy old man in a black coat who I unwittingly interrupted one day, deep in discussion with her. I was about to retreat but he spotted me and retreated sooner. He had a car parked in the lane. He drove away.
“That is Paul,” Gussy told me, “A dear friend! I am obliged to him for the provision of this caravan, and I have known him since the days when our priory prospered. Alas, we are not so young these days, but he has been most generous to our church and he does not forget me. We often pray together.”
For whatever reason, it may have been a visit to the caravan of a supplicant with a media presence, or maybe even an initiative by The Church itself, Gussy’s reputation as a solitary all at once became ‘viral’, and spread far and wide. As I grew to youth I saw more and more visitors make the pilgrimage up the muddy lane to her door; some who sought only her blessing or her company, others who wanted scraps from the plate of her wisdom, which encompassed much.
In a media-savvy generation the fame of such a good and truly honest person was inevitable, my father said, and it seemed he was right, for soon executives in big cars came creeping over the ruts in the lane, bearing offers from newspapers, radio, and television. Gussy responded to them all with enthusiasm, never once showing impatience with those who trampled her garden or intruded upon her devotions.
“I have become rather a failure as a recluse,” She confessed when I light-heartedly accused her of straying from her mission; “I have to tell myself I am doing the Lord’s work, and I never take a step without asking Him.” Her face split into a delighted smile; “If only I didn’t enjoy it so much!”
Our family watched Gussy’s first television appearance on a morning show, unsurprised by her calm, almost lyrical defence of her God but afraid for her then, and with reason. Soon she was holding down a regular spot on national television, contributing short accounts of episodes in her life which exemplified triumphs of faith. Those stories were compiled as a book that, if it did not exactly top the sales charts, at least made royalties she could pass on – as she passed on any fees – to her beloved Church.
Throughout these adventures the caravan remained Gussy’s retreat, her garden her consolation. As her travels made increasing demands on her I saw her less frequently, as much my fault as anyone’s because I was immersed in my studies, you see, with the Royal Academy beckoning. I was committed, by this time, to my music.
Sitting at my bedroom window the other day I recalled the last conversation we shared before I departed for college. I asked her if she felt there could be any chance she could return to her former life.
She pondered my question gravely for a moment. “If God asked it of me, of course I would. He makes the running, Dominic, not me. If He tells me I am more useful spreading His word, I can’t refuse, any more than you can close the lid on your piano when the world means you to play. I know you do not share in my belief, but I assure you He lives and moves in us both.”
“You must miss it; the peace, the turning of the seasons, all that?”
“Bless you, they still turn. I am still here, much of the time. I miss my few special friends. You, I shall miss when you are away; Paul, I miss him, too.”
“He doesn’t visit you anymore?”
“No. His years are a heavy burden, and Paul is a very private person – he rejoices in solitude, you might say, as much as I. With all the dashing to and fro I have to do these days, he is put off, I think. I haven’t seen him for almost a year now. It is God’s will.”
I met Sister Augusta just once more, a year later, on the very day I returned from Academy for the winter break. Previously, between terms I had called at the caravan, finding it locked and the precious little garden neglected. I knew she had many engagements; everyone, it seemed, wanted a share of her: ‘a piece of her’ to echo my father’s words. I would hear news of her successes from all over the world, from the Americas, Australia, Europe – she even had an audience with the Pope. So when my father told me she had come home, that November, I was almost surprised until the look on his face told the rest of the story.
“A friend of hers, someone called Paul, died this summer, and it seemed to rip the heart out of her, She’s very ill, Dom. Too ill to live on her own anymore, so Father Macalbee has arranged for her to be cared for by the nuns over at Monckton Delaval. She knows you’re home today, so Father Macalbee is bringing her here, because she especially asked to see you. You should prepare yourself, my boy. She’s extremely frail. Much has changed.”
In my young years I had yet to be close to one who was dying. The Gussy who Father Macalbee helped from his car outside our door was not the bright star I had known, but a shrunken husk of a life no more than a step or two from eternity. She brought a parcel wrapped in brown paper which the good Father carried for her and placed by her chair.
She spoke with difficulty, “It is a picture given to me by my blessed friend Paul, who has left us, so I thought it fitting it should come to you and your wonderful family. It is a gift, a token of my gratitude, now my work here is done.
“The land is yours, now. I have arranged for my caravan to be transported to Monckton Delaval: the good sisters there are taking me in, and that is my legacy for them. God will always protect you, and I pray we shall both have some small memory of each other.”
Mercifully quickly, within a week, my dear Gussy was dead, and I was left to mourn, as we all mourned. She asked, at the last, if she could be buried alongside her Sisters in the little garden where the spring flowers grow, and we gathered there to watch her take her place in earth I like to believe is made warmer by her presence. That, we thought, closed the book upon our life with Sister Augusta.
The picture she gave us had a place of honour on our dining room wall. It was old, an oil painting on board of a pleasant country scene featuring a stone monument beside a river. My father thought it looked Dutch but of no special merit. Its value was in the gift. Gussy wanted us to remember her by it, and this we did. Before long, though, it began generating memories of its own.
My father’s curiosity led him to some old catalogues. What he found he laid before us all in the dining room. What he suspected the internet seemed to confirm. We deliberated for a long time before we telephoned the police.
An art expert from the Victoria and Albert Museum shared our suspicions, and a representative from a Boston art gallery seemed jubilant that Govert Flinck’s seventeenth-century ‘Landscape with Obelisk’, stolen from his gallery many years before, had been found.
The police acted quickly, and it was good that they did, because the sisters of Monckton Delaval were already stripping Gussy’s old caravan down when they arrived and declared it a crime scene. Within a false inner wall they discovered three more stolen works of art and more than four hundred thousand pounds in used bank notes, a bequest their priory would never get to spend.
Gussy ’s shy friend Paul, later investigations discovered, as Paul Massingberd, international criminal, had every reason to be shy. To his unwitting friend, he had given a generous ‘gift’ – a caravan large enough to conceal a portion of his ill-gotten gains, in case forced retirement curtailed his gangland income. He died, though, before he had a chance to make any withdrawals. No-one was ever charged.
I like to think that Gussy would have been greatly amused by this turn of events, and beyond the reach of mortal man she could quietly smile, as she saw a fresh aspect of her life’s story unfold. After all, she had lived most of her life in poverty, sleeping within a few inches of a fortune. She couldn’t have known, could she?
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